Tired of certain people. Can't get enough of others. Missing the ones closest to my heart. Pushing away the rest. Wherethefuck is my heart at?
Forget climbing mountains, Im flying home to you.
" You may not be her first, her last, or her only. she loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."
b.m
Lying on the floor, washed by nothing & hanging on.
When i am lonely and longing for your touch, i think of when i used to study your hand lifting your cigarette. The slope of your shoulder, the angle of your hip. The way my heart would stop when your back was bare and you reached for something on the night-stand as your muscles created a perfect shape. I think of the times when i used to look at you sideways, the contour of your lips and the movement they'd make.
I love to examine you in different lights. My love for you is visual. Don't move, i think. Stay like that. Let me have that. For eternity.
I lick my lips at night while standing on the edge with nothing but your voice holding me back.
Late at night thinking of being with you, then being without you again is scaring me shitless. I spend hundreds of thousands of seconds out of my day imagining everything down to the littlest detail, to doing it all over again from a different angle. Repetition never feels as good as when thoughts of our touch is included. The thrill, the chill, the inevitable electricity. I'm just afraid that when i do get the chance to reconcile all the time lost, ill fold. What if we're not meant for each-other? I am playing with fire here, that i am aware of, but it is out of my control. Dear distance please don't force my heart to a place where it doesn't want to be. -Away from you. How will i ever survive tearing myself away and flying a thousand miles from you again?
The one who always remembers your sharp tongue.
It's wearing me out of my skin, this feeling. Out of everything that's safe. I can't even speak your name or anything that sounds like it without my stomach wrenching. You've been blowing my mind and i get so weak and unable to breathe. After all this time, I am learning that missing you is quite tiring. My heartbeat changes speed at every other thought of you and i as i type this i am feeling light headed.
I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world.
Her hands so perfectly polished in a shade of black darker than emptiness self gently touched his fingertips as he kissed her goodnight. They never spoke of it, but they both knew it was their last. He made her believe in everything yet she forgot about the world. She created a "reality" around him and his lovely hands. Oh his lovely hands. The same hands that would touch her every single night while he kissed her neck and the rhythm of his breath rolled her eyes back. Nobody ever made her feel the way he did. There was no way she could explain it, but if you ever loved her in lifetimes before and looked close, i mean really close, her eyes would tell the tales. Love was present in form of everything, everywhere, but it had to end nonetheless. Their worlds kept them apart for too long.
From this moment on she belonged to him forever. Until they would one day meet again and he would make her remember.
091110.
This is a letter to you, my dear.
Throughout my humble 24 years of living i have been blessed with the presence of what i would dare to admit 'the most amazing people on earth'. My close friends and family make me believe in perfection every single day. 10 months ago you took that perfection to another height. You walked into my life in pink and purple balenciaga heels a random night in january and never left my side since. You were never a part of my plan and us building the foundation of this amazing friendship we have today wasn't in my wildest imagination. You touched my heart with the clasp of your hand from the very start. I grew instant care for you and fell in love with all your quirky and lovable ways in going through life. I saw myself in you at so many levels and you got me at every flicker i made. You understood everything about me and it felt so strangely right. I met you in a tough stage of my life. I was looking for somewhere to belong and you made me believe in that again.
The million hours we ever spent talking, laughing our brains out, staring at the sky, dancing till we died, holding hands and pouring our hearts out to one another is something i am forever grateful to have been given. You are such a beautiful person inside and out. So amazingly stunning. You are exquisite and i could write you a song a million miles long and it would never be enough. The comfort you gave me while practically living with each-other for the longest time is a huge part of who i am today. I know it might sound crazy to the commoner that i have this love for you after less than a lifetime, but it's here nonetheless. The amazing conversations we had about life, love and other disasters on our many random nights, ill miss everyday until we meet again. Everything was a little more with you. A little more fun, a little more crazy, a little more careless, a little more perfect and a little more beautiful.
In two months i will be seeing you again. I will be graced with your presence and your wonderful being. You are my favorite shade of light. I can't wait for us to make all our dreams come true. I know you've had a rough couple of months and it has killed me inside knowing that i couldn't be there for you physically. I have tried my best to give you all my words, thoughts and love and i hope it has helped you in some kind of way. The same way you are always attentive of whatever emotions are running fast speed through my heart everyday.
So, thank you for being such a wonderful and inspirational person in my life. I wouldn't be the same without you. Believe me when i try to put to words that you are my love long distance and that i will dance every night away with you=)
Happy birthday Baretz, you i love.
bybj.
Cause we cool like that!
I give to you my b, Mikee! He's my ride and die. We're like one person divided in two bodies. Haha. But for real, there might not be a thing i wouldn't do for this dude. We've been down since the get go and i love him to death. Blood couldn't make us any closer. He's my family. Im hella proud to be a part of his life. He's so fucking dedicated and skilled in whatever he does. We have the most fun ever EVER and i die laughing forever. You know we're meant to do great things right? Anyway, visiting my hotel this weekend I made him model for me coz im a shrimp like that. It turned out hella hot coz he's a bawss and i'm a bawss lady. (whadup mendizzle!)
Holla!
Initials in my ceiling.
Time is of the essence, you run out of it. So if there's even the slightest chance to make'em happy, what are you waiting for?
"I'm not trying to be without you at the right moment". -Drake.
The only thing i know is the chaos in my mind.
"I don't know what to say but it feels like love in a big way. I hold my breath until i've had a look from the inside. "
Heart of gold, covered in ice. Learn to love me.
ByMike.
Pale skin and puffy eyes were always my speciality. Regardless of the hearts surrounding.
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